its sad to think that people, actual most of the time the same people fall in love, fall out of it, cry over the same guy, and yet well..you get the point?but in my case thats only happend to me once or twice? maybe three tops? idr. but idk. i think its cause i always, like seriously AL-WAYS, have my wall up (metaphorically speaking), so its hard for [new] people to know the real me. at first you meet/see this either (depending on first impressions) quiet, timid, studious, [sometimes] nice etc. girl, or really bitchy, mean, apathetic girl? sometimes that even scares me…that thats all people sometimes see ): that that’s all ill ever really amount to [well not including close people]. because then i wont be able to let all these new people in, i wont be able to experience what others have gone through-good, bad, exciting? watching everyone pass me by while i stay here behind my castle fortress…watching. =/